Some feelings, can't be named...

How well I know you
I’m surprised
I knew you wouldn’t answer
Even today when I think
There’s no other way out

Today I’m more than afraid
I’m more than scared
Than the rest of the days
When everything is gray

Today is black
Is dark, cold
Is lonely and for sure sad

I feel empty
There’s something absent,
I miss you
But I don’t want to need you

Many things together
My problems seemed to be one: you
But now I know that’s not true

Did you lie to me?
Or did I lie to my self?
What’s wrong?
Why can’t I see me?

Do I really don’t like having only you?
Or do I need anyone besides you?
I know for sure,
That what I need is only you