Crap, Crap and only Crap!

Crappy day, crappy life, crappy dreams, crappy future. I don't even wan't to wake up anymore... I don't deserve the sunshine rays, I don't deserve anything. Seriously, there's something wrong, and the only one who I feel trust, is not close, and the rest.. the rest is just there... but never here... never near. one of these day's i'll be strong enough to talk to him, and somehow he'll be there... is all about what has turned regular, a mood that doesn't allow me to smile, or to be happy, I just don't want to go out, out of myself, out of my place.. out of mi mind