Brownies, Fantastic Brownies

I'm amazed, the power of a bag of brownies has left me speechless, even though, I was the one who left them in someone's door...

I thought I was going to get killed after that, but I didn't and instead, I was able to change simple brownies (that besides I enjoy making) into a wonderfull gift, to someone, who saw the essence, not of the present, but saw more, saw me... I can't believe that after all that effort I have been making in order to be seen, a bag of home-maden brownies could change all that. Now I know, for further occasions, that Brownies have a special power in others!

Thanks to Cami, I discovered the hidden power and effect of brownies, fantastic brownies!

In my stomach...

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BUTTERFLIES!!!!!

Some feelings, can't be named...

How well I know you
I’m surprised
I knew you wouldn’t answer
Even today when I think
There’s no other way out

Today I’m more than afraid
I’m more than scared
Than the rest of the days
When everything is gray

Today is black
Is dark, cold
Is lonely and for sure sad

I feel empty
There’s something absent,
I miss you
But I don’t want to need you

Many things together
My problems seemed to be one: you
But now I know that’s not true

Did you lie to me?
Or did I lie to my self?
What’s wrong?
Why can’t I see me?

Do I really don’t like having only you?
Or do I need anyone besides you?
I know for sure,
That what I need is only you

You fucker!
How could you be able?
What changed you?
What made you just the same as the rest?

You liar:
Yes, you lied to ME!
You insensible asshole!
What did I do?

Why did you say all that to me?
Why did you make me believe?
Why were you so great?
Why didn’t I notice you were a complete idiot?

I was just beginning to believe
It is not fair
Why is it so fun?
What did I do wrong?

Yesterday I needed you
Today, I don’t even know
Yesterday you were my friend
Today I don’t want to know

Sorry, I forgot
You hate to fail
And if your purpose was hurting me,
YOU didn’t failed this time again

You moron!
You bastard!
You cocksucker!
You fucker!

Don’t ever do that again
Not to anyone else
Because, my pride won’t give
half a chance for you to do it again!

Not even a bill can be as fake as you
Not even I can be as mean as you
What should I do?
Just erase you from my mind
But what about my heart?

So now what?
Not now please
This fucking mess
Is all your fault

How disappointed I am
Even though, I don’t know If I should
cry, laugh, or fucking kill my self!
But I do know that I must be with high pride

Don’t ever talk to me again
Don’t ever be there
Just leave!
Leave the country! LEAVE ME!

Alone
All alone
Once again I’m searching
For someone else

Good bye
Good bye my friend
Good bye wish
Good bye dream
Good bye life
Good bye

The bad thing, is that that feelind didn't last long...he's obviously back

I miss you, I wish you

It seems to me that today
is darker than what yesterday was
there’s no other way,
I need you at the end of the day

I’m scared, I’m scared as hell
You might be gone
You will be gone
But I won’t, I’ll be here

I’m not in your world
I’m not even near
Is my heart broken?
Or will yours broke?

I’ll miss you
I’ll miss you as hell
If the light is gone
I’ll be once again lost

There’s no chance you’re staying
I know for sure, but I ask you to please
Take me near with you
Unless I become some kind of sleaze

I’ll keep on wishing
For you to see me
I’ll keep on wishing
For you to think me

You once said
Wishes are needed to live
You once told me
Wishes are a reason to live

If people need wishes
As I need you
If for some you are a wish
I would say you are my deepest wish

Mixed feelings today
Mixed feelings since always
Unmixed feelings is my need
But yet, not my wish

Is it going to be in June?
Or will the end be July?
Can the end be a beginning?
Or will the beginning be the end?

Is like if I was born with you inside
Like if you where a part of me
If you believe in destiny,
Will I ever be part of yours?

I’m sad,
I’m sad as hell
I can’t write any more
Words are not anymore enough

You are more than enough,
you are a dream come true,
A present dream,
A hope,
A reason,
My life

Casi Todas! 10mo 

๑ஐNow entering the final Stage: 11th!ஐ๑

Yeah Dude!!! 11th! after everything, after ten, the end!

For a while I thought, well after all, doing 10th again won't be that bad, but now that is over, it would be worse thing ever!!!

Yesterday I was in 6B, trynig to decide if i really wanted to begin again in a different place, with different teachers, different friends.. just different and wonderfully nice!and the best thing was that I did, I did took a different road from the one I've always imagine, from the regualr one. Sometimes I felt that that was the most idiot, stupid and non- sense decision someone (not just me) could ever make, but obviously, the rest of the time I'm fully convinced , that I wouldn't be who I am, I wouldn't have such friends, such memories and I wouldn't be mesmerized by life itself!

Today, I can't wait to see how it all ends, to see what comes next, to amaze my self with the decision I'll make (career, university etc), and show all of those lettuces, that it is not as important as they think, that they killed themselves to enter the same career many of my classmates will, and that after all, we had fun. I know is mean, but I can't help it, I hate the school that made me afraid of soo many things. I can't stop hating the school where I totally lost like many years, believing that it was me the one with a problem, that I was pathetic, and I'm not! I also learnt some few things there, I still have some memories from that place, but not as many, not as good as the ones I have from my actual school!